Author Archives: insearchofmyvoice

reasons to keep on living

reasons to keep on living: – friends and family who love you – museums – travel – sunrise and sunsets – books i feel so hopeless and this battle with depression is too tiring. some days CBT just does not … Continue reading

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the end of the road

broke up with Bear last night. felt heavy weight lifted off my shoulders. though i’m naturally sad (we’ve shared so many happy memories together), i do feel somewhat relieved.

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got me thinking….

met up with the cantab folks for drinks and it was good catching up. got me thinking again about what i want to do. i’m essentially working with a clean slate here and i can do anything i want. what … Continue reading

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about turn….

following the sense of calmness i had about marriage, i started having fears and concerns again after spending time with Bear over Chinese New Year. i started when he didn’t know the meaning of certain words and i started to … Continue reading

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impending nuptials?

As I was in church today (first service for 2012), I felt so so glad to be back in the house of the Lord. So glad I am able to worship and praise him and I praised him with all … Continue reading

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thank you Lord!

thank you Lord that i have finally recovered! i am finally able to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! the perceptible difference was yesterday (Sunday) when E titi came home for the weekend and … Continue reading

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Dear Father 09Jan2012

O God, I feel like dying…. My sleep cycle is all wrecked up…. Sleeping in the day and staying awake at night. Have a massive headache now and it’s 2.23 am in the morning. I haven’t left the house in … Continue reading

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