following the sense of calmness i had about marriage, i started having fears and concerns again after spending time with Bear over Chinese New Year. i started when he didn’t know the meaning of certain words and i started to panic. my intellectual mind took over and i felt a sense of dread at having to explain everything to him. almost triggered a depressive episode but thank God i recovered after a long rest…..
one night i just blurted how to Bear how i truly felt. i know i crushed his spirit but at least he knows how i honestly feel and where i stand on the matter.