Monthly Archives: January 2012

got me thinking….

met up with the cantab folks for drinks and it was good catching up. got me thinking again about what i want to do. i’m essentially working with a clean slate here and i can do anything i want. what … Continue reading

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about turn….

following the sense of calmness i had about marriage, i started having fears and concerns again after spending time with Bear over Chinese New Year. i started when he didn’t know the meaning of certain words and i started to … Continue reading

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impending nuptials?

As I was in church today (first service for 2012), I felt so so glad to be back in the house of the Lord. So glad I am able to worship and praise him and I praised him with all … Continue reading

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thank you Lord!

thank you Lord that i have finally recovered! i am finally able to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! the perceptible difference was yesterday (Sunday) when E titi came home for the weekend and … Continue reading

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Dear Father 09Jan2012

O God, I feel like dying…. My sleep cycle is all wrecked up…. Sleeping in the day and staying awake at night. Have a massive headache now and it’s 2.23 am in the morning. I haven’t left the house in … Continue reading

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gradual recovery

continuing from yesterday, feeling a bit better. experiencing greater clarity of the mind, but the clarity comes and goes. still sleeping a lot as well. recovery seems very slow. not 100% back to normal yet. still find some tasks daunting … Continue reading

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Dear Father 3Jan2012

Oh Lord, I feel scared that this recovery is not forthcoming… I feel trepidation and anxiety. So tired of sleeping already. Forgive me for my lack of faith. Help me not fail you O Lord. Forgive me Father for not … Continue reading

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