Monthly Archives: November 2011

post-nap feelings and more…

woke up feeling so much worse than before… woke up feeling ill-tempered and angry. need grace & mercy to make it through rest of the day. parents coming up to visit. not necessary really. nothing they can do. feel so … Continue reading

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darkest before dawn

they say it is darkest just before dawn… well, this is about as dark as it gets…. need to hang on until things look up… they eventually do. i don’t know what’s wrong but i can’t seem to get anything … Continue reading

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battling boredom…

now that i have regained mental clarity, i now battle boredom. what do i do with my time? i can’t watch dramas all day… i can’t surf the net all day… i can’t read all day. at least i am … Continue reading

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why am i doing this course?

have reached a point in my course where i ask myself why i’m doing this… have lost interest and the passion behind why i signed up in the first place. i don’t see myself working with kids in the long … Continue reading

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CBT

trainwreck of  a day after two weeks of continuous good mood and high energy levels. was advised by the doctor to reduce Zyprexa to 2.5mg but after yesterday’s disaster, am back on 5mg. mental clarity returned but energy levels not … Continue reading

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am i doing ok?

just returned from a trip to Bali for a wedding. restful holiday but regret slightly that i didn’t do the usual touristy stuff. good mood and high energy levels continues. problem now with indecision and compulsive thoughts. make decision about … Continue reading

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giving thanks

my 3rd consecutive day of mental clarity. giving thanks for each blessed day. trying to make productive use of my time as much as possible. slept on the idea of returning to consulting…. less optimistic compared to yesterday…. or should … Continue reading

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