feeling listless again today. am i going crazy? am i losing my mind? everything seems so difficult. even the simplest tasks look insurmountable. i have no energy to do anything.
i feel scared. everything seems daunting….. what do i need? what do i want? i did quiet time this morning. it helped. prayed. it helped. looking through dad’s reports help utilise my time and energy but it has been slow going. i just want to find a hole to crawl into.
trying to remember Psalm 40:1-3
I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry.He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the LORD.
surely, He will lift me out of my pit of mud and mire and set me on a firm rock.
i can’t even muster enough energy to shower… how pathetic is that? need to stop having a pity party. need to muster enough courage to make a change. i think i need help. is it the meds that causing me to be like this?