felt frustrated talking to the Bear again…. i know he feels vulnerable and afraid because of the symptoms he’s been experiencing…. but i wished he were tougher and wouldn’t look to me for support. i don’t know why i am so uncaring. don’t feel like talking to him when he is unsure and uncertain of things…. does he expect me to know what to do?
talking to him feels like such a chore sometimes…. i should be more supportive…
but i can’t stand it when he feels so afraid of illness. we all die one day…. i don’t fear physical pain… why can’t he get a grip of himself? what does he fear?
sometimes i just don’t feel like talking to him. i wished he would take charge and know what to do…. instead of looking to me and depending on me…..
Lord, how can i minister to him? how can i be honest about how i feel and yet be able to be caring & supportive?
i feel irritated & annoyed. wished he’d get a grip….
i really don’t feel like talking to him sometimes. i don’t mind taking care of him when he is sick and i will support him. just don’t talk to me in that whiny scared tone…. i don’t know how to help you!