Monthly Archives: June 2009

the cloud lifts…

woke up feeling perceptibly better this morning. so strange. i can actually feel the difference in the frontal part of the brain. i wonder how much of it is caused by bio-chemical factors and how much by spiritual factors. i was actually … Continue reading

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still feel like dying…

must…not…give…in…to…this…feeling… the battle is real, the emotions are real, but it’s not the truth. i still feel as if each day carries no meaning. everything is transient. everything is hopeless. a chasing after the wind.

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suicidal thoughts

have been feeling absolutely miserable since Saturday afternoon. feel empty and suicidal thoughts keep occupying my mind. don’t really want to due, but life seems intolerable. i feel i have nothing to live for. empty. yet how untrue this is when … Continue reading

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rudderless

feel a bit better after a good night’s rest and mummy’s prayers. dunno when the restless feeling will return. felt rudderless over the past two days. going no where and achieving nothing. no career, no family. not so fussed about … Continue reading

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